20th March 2019. 26th day of reclusion: thoughts have become my most evil enemy. I hated my routine because I hate my job, but now that I don't have it anymore I'm really starting to lose my mind. It requires a good load of self-discipline to work from home, but most than anything else, the most important thing this quarantine is teaching me is that you MUST learn to shut overthinking off. If overthinking strikes and you have plenty of time to listen to it, trust me, things will get nasty really fast. In the last few days, two monoliths have grown in my head: "I can't do anything good", and "I'm alone and no one likes me". They've always been in my head since middle school, but now that nothing is holding them back anymore they're the only thing I see and hear when I open my eyes in the morning. I can do whatever I want, work, draw, call a friend, it doesn't matter: at some point a small hint somewhere will "prove" me that wh...
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